Awhile back I mentioned on my Instagram page that I had participated in a Family Constellations workshop and that it had effected me in a profound way. Somehow, it shifted something within me about my miscarriages, the loss of Luna and how they’ve shaped on my motherhood. I haven’t written further about it, because what …
I’ve been finding it difficult to find the words to write lately. There seems to be so much content out there, so many people writing about what is going on and how to get through it. I’m finding it difficult to describe what I’m feeling, or maybe it’s just too overwhelming? Could be. I’m going …
We had another big death discussion a couple of weeks ago and it got me thinking about the things that Benjamin has asked or said about death over the last 3 years and how his understanding is growing and changing. I thought it may be helpful to others to see what sorts of things he …
I recently wrote a guest blog post for The Legacy of Leo blog, run by Jess, one of Leo’s mummies. The post is a part of her Diversity In Loss series during this Baby and Infant Loss Awareness Month – with this week being of particular importance. I wrote about Luna, but specifically about the …
I was invited to write a guest post for Jennie Agg’s Mum’s Voice Series on her blog The Uterus Monologues. I’m proud of this post. It’s been quite emotional for me to see it all written down, in black and white, but I am so pleased to have had the opportunity to share our experiences …
Pregnancy after loss. It’s all over the place. People talking about it, wanting to know how to deal with it…by ‘it’ I mean the fear. The hashtag PAL is everywhere, there was even a whole day in dedication to it only last week. I get it. It’s the hope mixed with fear that these pregnancies …
The pregnancy loss that tipped me over the edge was a medical termination. We lost Luna at 19 weeks, she had Turner’s Syndrome, we knew this from 12 weeks. We had been giving her time to see if the complications she was suffering from may stabilise to a point where she could be born live …
When it comes to miscarriage and baby loss, ‘normal’ takes on some very different forms and unexpected turns. I was taking a look at old photo’s the other day and I came across the ones taken nearly three years ago while we were in Canada for my brother’s wedding. There’s some lovely photo’s and I …
For a five year old, Benjamin is pretty clued up about death and grief. Just over two years ago, his baby sister, Luna, died. Since that moment – actually, even before we knew she was definitely going to die, he was a part of the story. Both of my parents have died, Dad when I …
What does this mean? What shape does it take? What are our ideas of it before we attain it? How does it change once we have? Are you only a mother to living children? These are some of the questions I ask of myself, quite a lot! Some I have found answers to, others are …