It would have been my parents 43rd wedding anniversary yesterday (14th August). My mum wrote, on what would have been their 30th anniversary, in her own blog 13 years ago. Here's what she had to say. Bear in mind that she had just finished her own treatment for breast cancer only a few months previously:…
Death and Due Date Anniversaries, Grief Fog, Big Life Decisions…and naps
It's been awhile since my last confession - I mean, post. Freudian slip there! Well, not really. I suppose these posts are like confessions. They're certainly the truth, at least as I see/feel it at the time of writing. I haven't posted on here in a while for a few reasons. Work has gotten in…
What’s ‘normal’?
When it comes to miscarriage and baby loss, 'normal' takes on some very different forms and unexpected turns. I was taking a look at old photo’s the other day and I came across the ones taken nearly three years ago while we were in Canada for my brother’s wedding. There’s some lovely photo’s and I…
A conversation of death with a 5 year old
For a five year old, Benjamin is pretty clued up about death and grief. Just over two years ago, his baby sister, Luna, died. Since that moment - actually, even before we knew she was definitely going to die, he was a part of the story. Both of my parents have died, Dad when I…
At the pool
Watching you jump and splash So happy! So joyous and full of life. Diving and twisting and leaping Like a dolphin. Racing with daddy, who will get there first? Benjamin! Daddy's a good sport.
Reflections
Taking a look at the photo gallery I posted on New Year's Eve, I realised how many of the photo's have Luna as their subject. This is really heartening to see, she is a part of our family and we are thinking of her always. Which means we are taking her with us everywhere and…
A year in photo’s
These are a few of my favourite photo's from 2018.Here's wishing everyone a very happy and healthy 2019.
Dad’s birthday
A couple of weekends ago, it was my dad's birthday, he would have been 69. We celebrated by going to Polesden Lacey, near Dorking, for a walk and some lunch. As you can see, it was a beautiful Autumn day. Truthfully, I haven't been very good at marking these dates in the past. I have…
What’s important
All this talk of loss has made me think of, and appreciate, what I do have. My wonderful husband, Charlie: one of the kindest and gentlest people I know. I wouldn't have made it through my darkest days without his steadfast love and support. One or two random events in the last few weeks have…
Disaster
One of the main reasons why I started this blog was because of our experience of losing a baby last year. It broke me as a person. I've had my fair share of loss, both my parents are now dead. My father died of cancer when I was 20 and my mother of cancer when…