I wonder what you would be doing right now. If you had been healthy and been able to make it to full term, you would be about 18 months old now. Would you have been like your big brother, late to get up and walk, or would you have been keen to keep up with …
Ben: “Who is my Granny?” Me: “Granny Jaynie, my mummy and Granny-“ Ben: “Daddy’s mummy.” Me: “That’s right.” Ben: “So we need to put you and me on a list with Granny Jaynie and give it to her. That would be nice for her.” Me: “Yes, because we all belong together?” Ben: “Yes. Where is …
Taking a look at the photo gallery I posted on New Year’s Eve, I realised how many of the photo’s have Luna as their subject. This is really heartening to see, she is a part of our family and we are thinking of her always. Which means we are taking her with us everywhere and …
A couple of weekends ago, it was my dad’s birthday, he would have been 69. We celebrated by going to Polesden Lacey, near Dorking, for a walk and some lunch. As you can see, it was a beautiful Autumn day. Truthfully, I haven’t been very good at marking these dates in the past. I have …
Charlie had bought and read the book Grief is the thing with Feathers ages ago…I gave it a wide berth! I find it difficult to read things like this, they pick at the scab of my grief. However, our good friend has worked on the theater production of this book and we have booked to …
What I didn’t really go into in my last post was how this miscarriage was different from my previous ones (they have all been very different), my waters actually broke with this one. Which I don’t think is uncommon, but it did have the effect of feeling more like the process of labour. And that’s …
So the actual physical part of the miscarriage started on it’s own last week. Which is a relief, I didn’t want to have to interfere with the process that was already underway. But, once things really got going and the reality hit home – “this is really happening” – suddenly, the elephant in the room …
One of the main reasons why I started this blog was because of our experience of losing a baby last year. It broke me as a person. I’ve had my fair share of loss, both my parents are now dead. My father died of cancer when I was 20 and my mother of cancer when …