Awhile back I mentioned on my Instagram page that I had participated in a Family Constellations workshop and that it had effected me in a profound way. Somehow, it shifted something within me about my miscarriages, the loss of Luna and how they’ve shaped on my motherhood. I haven’t written further about it, because what …
Sllllllooooooooooooow down. Just stop. Listen. It’s not easy, I know, but our lives depend on it…and not just because of a virus. Two years ago, almost to the day, I had back surgery. I had debilitating sciatica. It had originally been brought on by doing one of those mum and baby exercise classes where you …
I find myself missing my parents a lot right now. There’s something about a crisis that heightens the feelings of their loss in my life. I’m craving the sound of their reassuring voices, especially my dad’s. I feel slightly adrift, but it’s a familiar feeling that’s always there, somewhere inside me. If I sit quietly …
I’ve been finding it difficult to find the words to write lately. There seems to be so much content out there, so many people writing about what is going on and how to get through it. I’m finding it difficult to describe what I’m feeling, or maybe it’s just too overwhelming? Could be. I’m going …
‘Meaning makes a great many things endurable – perhaps everything.’ ~ Carl Jung After Luna died, on one of my visits to her at the funeral home, I wrote her a letter. In this letter I said many things but one of those things was a promise to make sure her short life counts for …
I recently wrote a guest blog post for The Legacy of Leo blog, run by Jess, one of Leo’s mummies. The post is a part of her Diversity In Loss series during this Baby and Infant Loss Awareness Month – with this week being of particular importance. I wrote about Luna, but specifically about the …
I was invited to write a guest post for Jennie Agg’s Mum’s Voice Series on her blog The Uterus Monologues. I’m proud of this post. It’s been quite emotional for me to see it all written down, in black and white, but I am so pleased to have had the opportunity to share our experiences …
It would have been my parents 43rd wedding anniversary yesterday (14th August). My mum wrote, on what would have been their 30th anniversary, in her own blog 13 years ago. Here’s what she had to say. Bear in mind that she had just finished her own treatment for breast cancer only a few months previously: …
Pregnancy after loss. It’s all over the place. People talking about it, wanting to know how to deal with it…by ‘it’ I mean the fear. The hashtag PAL is everywhere, there was even a whole day in dedication to it only last week. I get it. It’s the hope mixed with fear that these pregnancies …
That’s what I saw typed on my notes as I was sat across from the Registrar. She was talking to me about my latest missed miscarriage, what my options were, what they could do for me, etc… T.O.P. It took me a moment to figure out what this meant, and then I realised: Termination of …