Image by Stefan Keller from Pixabay ‘Mummy?’ It was Benjamin calling out to me early one morning this week, ‘Ya? I’m here, in my room.’ I could then hear him shuffling and moving in his bed, shortly followed by his baby elephant stomping on the landing and into our room. He’d had a nightmare, I could see it …
Awhile back I mentioned on my Instagram page that I had participated in a Family Constellations workshop and that it had effected me in a profound way. Somehow, it shifted something within me about my miscarriages, the loss of Luna and how they’ve shaped on my motherhood. I haven’t written further about it, because what …
I find myself missing my parents a lot right now. There’s something about a crisis that heightens the feelings of their loss in my life. I’m craving the sound of their reassuring voices, especially my dad’s. I feel slightly adrift, but it’s a familiar feeling that’s always there, somewhere inside me. If I sit quietly …
We had another big death discussion a couple of weeks ago and it got me thinking about the things that Benjamin has asked or said about death over the last 3 years and how his understanding is growing and changing. I thought it may be helpful to others to see what sorts of things he …
‘Meaning makes a great many things endurable – perhaps everything.’ ~ Carl Jung After Luna died, on one of my visits to her at the funeral home, I wrote her a letter. In this letter I said many things but one of those things was a promise to make sure her short life counts for …
It’s been awhile since my last confession – I mean, post. Freudian slip there! Well, not really. I suppose these posts are like confessions. They’re certainly the truth, at least as I see/feel it at the time of writing. I haven’t posted on here in a while for a few reasons. Work has gotten in …
Ahem, so, I have gotten two or three comments recently telling me how ‘strong’ I am or must be. These have come via social media channels, but I have had it said to my face over the years as well, and it’s got me thinking. I want to be very clear, I am enormously grateful …
For a five year old, Benjamin is pretty clued up about death and grief. Just over two years ago, his baby sister, Luna, died. Since that moment – actually, even before we knew she was definitely going to die, he was a part of the story. Both of my parents have died, Dad when I …
A friend of mine sent me a link to Cariad Lloyd’s podcast, Griefcast, the other week. I would highly recommend it to anyone who is either a part of this weird club (Cariad’s words, not mine!) or is possibly supporting someone who is in the club. I’ve put a link at the end of this …