All this talk of loss has made me think of, and appreciate, what I do have. My wonderful husband, Charlie: one of the kindest and gentlest people I know. I wouldn’t have made it through my darkest days without his steadfast love and support. One or two random events in the last few weeks have made me really appreciate having him in my life, I am so, so lucky and he is very precious to me…and I don’t say it often enough to him. I’ve made a promise to myself to do better.
My beautiful little boy, Benjamin: he is my light, my ray of sunshine, my giggle monster and my superhero! He is such a loving, sensitive, clever and funny child, one cuddle from him and it makes my whole day. The love I feel for him is so expansive, squishy and soft…like expanding foam. When has anyone compared love to expanding foam?! But it’s true, it fills all the gaps and cracks and makes me feel weather tight.
My pretty awesome friends: those lovely people who consistently uplift me by their generosity of spirit. I love them with all my heart. I have come to rely on them to be there for me when I need them most and they’ve not let me down…did I say they were awesome?!
I realise I’m lucky. It makes me sad to think that some people really have no one who loves them and who they love back. My journey has been lonely at times, but thankfully, not for very long. I feel grateful for the reminders to take stock that have come my way lately. I’d like to think that I don’t take people for granted, but the truth is, we all get a little complacent (ahem, lazy) sometimes.
It’s important to remember those we’ve lost, to carry the love we feel for them with us and to continue to nurture that love. It’s equally important to appreciate those that are still with us, who love and support us here and now and to remember what we have, as well as what we’ve lost.